This past week has taught me alot about what is important in life and I also learned more about my husband. We experienced a very tragic loss on Friday of a friend and neighbor, he felt that he had nothing to live for so he decided to end his life and all it really did was leave behind all the family and friends that truly cared about him. No one ever saw the signs that something was wrong, but looking back they may have been there, we just were too busy with our own life to pay close attention. So please in the future if you know someone who is down on life, try and prevent another tragic death and help someone by talking to them or point them in the right direction of someone who will listen to them and help them.
I am not being negative, I just really have a lot on my plate and its overwhelming at times while looking at the whole picture, instead of taking things apart to analyze them and make them more managable. I am having ankle surgery in November, an upcoming deployment,and spending time alone for a while, which may be a good thing, but the part of my heart will be gone that helps me get through the days.....Love my husband and hope we get through this all.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Today was a rough day
This is not a blog towards anyone in particular.....
For those who don't know, my husband and I are struggling with fertility, we have been married almost 2 years and so far we have been unsuccessful in conceiving a baby of our own. Today was just one of those days that felt like a slap in the face because others around me are having children, and it makes me ask when will it be my turn? I am not getting any younger, the biological clock is ticking very very loudly. So if I seem agitated or quite frankly pissy its because every month that passes makes me feel like a failure because there is something physically wrong with me and it is extremely frustrating. Hopefully soon we can get the testing done and figure out exactly what is going on inside of me and my husband. So please dont get angry or upset with me, I just am very emotional right now, I love you all.
For those who don't know, my husband and I are struggling with fertility, we have been married almost 2 years and so far we have been unsuccessful in conceiving a baby of our own. Today was just one of those days that felt like a slap in the face because others around me are having children, and it makes me ask when will it be my turn? I am not getting any younger, the biological clock is ticking very very loudly. So if I seem agitated or quite frankly pissy its because every month that passes makes me feel like a failure because there is something physically wrong with me and it is extremely frustrating. Hopefully soon we can get the testing done and figure out exactly what is going on inside of me and my husband. So please dont get angry or upset with me, I just am very emotional right now, I love you all.
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